Sunday, July 20, 2008

Getaway.

It's been sometime since my last entry. So many thoughts yet so difficult to express.

This week had been a hectic week. So many preparations to upcoming fieldcamps and there was live firing. Gee. Next week is another chaotic week too and i cant wait for next week to end. Realy need a break. Havent been going anywhere with my girlfriend at all, I need a getaway from this place.

Few days back, Joseph and I was chatting about his God during the liv firing. I wouldnt want to get myself attached to a religion for certain reasons and true enough, he was telling me I'm living in self-denial and defying logic and faith. But ya, it's difficult. I couldnt really argue with him cause he is sucha an ass and given the fact his dad is a pastor, there are many things that he shared wit me that kinda hit me in the head. And there was this mind-blowing logic that nearly threw me of my seat when he said it to me.

"If I throw an apple in the air, it will fall back to the ground. And with science, you can start calculating the acceleration and force etc. All this happen because of Gravity. But. Can we see Gravity? Can we deny the existence of Gravity because we couldnt see it?"

Haha. Our usual emo talks bout' life and religions. But this analogy he gave hit me hard Ive to admit.

For now, I'm just an ordinary guy leading a sad life. =)

Sunday, July 13, 2008

damn

And Ivan said
"If u cant convince them, confuse them. And when you cant confuse them, join them."

Im living in the state of self-denial to many things around me. uh-huh. This is bad.

I love Jodi Picoult and I love to get myself emo. I will name my daughter Clare when I've one.

Im 20. It's time to do something for my future and make an impact to society when Im young.

And one thing, I extended my ORD for the money.

Fuck it. Take me away.