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this is the rap i wrote
specially done for my dad
he will never get to read this
for this shit
is something he never wish

i sick of studying
sick of test and exams and shits
i feel like collasping
just resting on your shoulders
but what these woman's perfume i smell
it aint from my mom
it aint from my sis
izit from that fucking bitch
i'm boiling my nuts
while you are messaging that slut
that fucking hoarse
c'mon, go and fuck a horse
my dad aint a dog
it aint resting log
so get your ass out
before i really fuck you upside down

daddy, can you tell me why
that you like to hurt our feelings so much
the trust i've placed in you
seem to drift apart again
i wouldnt care less
to shoot that woman ass
or put her head at gun point
to see those brain juices oozing out
and i'll shoot you too
after i shoot her dead
and fuck u bitch
for all you've done
should i say thank you you
or should i shout fuck you too
a shattered family u've done
dont come and tell me craps
that love is something u cant catch
cause bitch let me tell you
he's a married man with 3 kids
and you are a bitchy hoarse with no kick
you fucking china lady
opps, did i say just say a LADY?
i think you are more of a cock n my body
i'm warning you dad
dont let me catch you in an act
a father no more i would say
a son once more you never have
a family u tear with your filthy hands
a relationship that have never before

so ladies and gentlemen
i came to the end of my rap
i aint tryna be an attention seeker
but just the only way i try to vent my anger
one last word before i go
mom, i love you so

::notice me::

Ohh I wanna let you know
That I'll always love you baby
Sometime I think about
Everything that we've been through
And I pray that you would jus open your eyes
I love you I need you
So please don't throw our love away

Since the day you andI snuck away to be alone
I knew from that night something special went on
It must have been the first kiss
You told me that no one else in the world made you feel this
I felt the same way too but nothing stays the same
I'm sorry for the tears
I'm sorry for the pain
You were the one that always made things right
I promise you this though you got a friend for life
Maybe one day we can try it again
And maybe things can be a little different
So lets jus kiss and say goodbye
Cuz I really cant stand the pain of seeing you cry

I've given everything
I loved you endlessly
But when it comes to me
You don't even notice me
I've given everything
I loved you endlessly
But when it comes to me
You don't even notice me

All that's mine is yours that's what I said
Treat you with love and respect in everyway
You wanted I gave you need me I was there
Now you treat like if I'm not here
I love you and I need you don't wanna let go
If you want somebody else please let me know
Can't take it no moreI feel in dying inside
Is this the price I pay for handing you my life?
I know I'm not prefect but I truly cared
So when you wake up one morning and I'm not there
Jus remember I loved you it will never be the same
Gave you everything and you threw it all away

NB ridaz - notice me
nice song.
it suit me soo much =]
gotta study my physics.. cant fail the next test that is coming up.

she's no you

a endless love, a broken heart, a jaded life

unwanted reality, unwanted memories which i wish to put back in time

i am living happily right now and i hope that this will carry on for now

i have great friends which make my life seems so much better,
family that concerns about me.
but, am i too selfish to forget bout` their concerns?
i get fockerised over my own matters. she is leaving to england in a few months time. and her vactions going to stretch over a few months. gee. its suppose to be the past, but why is my heart struggling now? i dun wan. i hate this feeling.

though i doubt she'll be reading this entry, but its still for her. in case you are here.
esther, hope you have fun at england. i hope that this period of time, i will be able to put back those feelings totally.it's been one year. i've been talking to this gal recently, but friendship is nevertheless the best choice. yep. take smiling, sweetie =]

tomorrow is my chinese mock exam
gotta study le.
yixin, lunch how?

=]

i love that piggy

wednesday primary school gathering was a very nice one.. its a annual event. you can imagine how cool it will be if another gethering is hold 10 years later. when i see my friends bringing their wives or kids along. gee. i am so fasnicated bout' how is life going to be when i break out from this youth age of mine. but some people, they can jaded about life at such a early age. its quite sad though. mark didnt go for the gathering. i'm quite bored by the fact then.but to my surprise, jerome kwek came. haha. we went to the staircase to chill and spoke lots of things. me and jerome, we shared the same illnesses. its a crucial disease call schirmeparpelsoxdoceade, also known as the brand-conscious-illness. we were typical metrosexual guys who like fashion. but for him, its jap. for me, i prefer hip. haa. but nevertheless, we love brands =x lolx. but right now, i am too poor to go after such luxury. so, i might as well die from this disease. =]

i love that piggy in my life. we chatted on the phone for till 5.30 this morning. and in the end, i slept till the afternoon. lolx. a imperfect romance can ruin a great friendship.

i'm going for camping till sunday! me and afiq are now working on a song lyric. i cant deny but the melody of the song he compose is very nice. *i am trying very hard not to praise him* dont miss me while i'm away

ciao`
afiq sucks!