memories

an entry i wrote 1 year ago. i felt like a fool. mmm


I reached home late this morning at around 2am. I sat down at my desk. My mind searched for a sad memory. I penned down my feelings on a paper. I sealed it up in an envelope and had it sent to the address:
Ivan’s memories box
7/7/1988
Singapore 8824396

Thanks for the letter u sent to me that day at esplanade. Although I was surprised to receive the letter, I was quite happy that u still remembers me. Recently, my life doesn’t seem to be fine. I’ve been thinking of 30/7/2004. I still remember that night, when I got together with my ex. How I tried to hold her hand at keat hong lrt and how we didn’t want to let each other’s hands go when I needed to get home. This day last year, we would have been together for one year. But sad to say, things don’t always go as planned. We ended our relationship quite fast. The memories I had with her still stays sweet in my mind. But I gave up. I told myself that this had to come to an end sooner or later. I just hope that you, as a memory box hidden in my soul, will do your job and keep this letter and memory well. Don’t send me any more letters regarding this issue. I hope that she stays happy. I’ll pray for you and her, and may god bless her. Anyway, do take care. Maybe after a few years, I will go over to visit you and reflect these memories.

With care, Ivan