It's one forty in the morning and although I haven't got much of a sleep since yesterday, my mind just couldnt rest and sleep.

What goes around comes back around. True with what Justin has in his song.

Recently, one month back, I discovered my interest in Christianity. And although my mom is quite objective to the bible study sessions ive been havng for the past few sundays, I just want to make it clear that Im free from any religion. That although my practices are those of a taoist, my actions and beliefs stay clear from it. My mindset doesnt allow me to situated my belief to only one religion, so as to speak.

Do all of us believe in Him or the so-called Almighty? I'm reading the "What does the Bible really teaches" and I came across this meaningful paragraph. Often, we dread of the misgivings and evil doings that are happening around the world. Many blames God and questions his ability to safeguard the interests and security of His people. What it says in the book is that God does allow such things to happen but He doesnt cause it. The author uses the relationship between a father and a child. That when the child started to change for the worst and there is no way he can stop it because of unforseen circumstances, the father allows it to happen but surely he is not the one to be blame for the child's actions. To put it simply, whatever religion or faith one may believe in , we shouldnt blame the Almighty for the shitty things that are happening around us.

One piece of note, Im not writing all this to propagate Christianity so be cool.

Ive finished reading "Shadow of the Wind" and now Im starting on another book I just bought " The Memory Keeper's Daughter ". Appreciate reading because it brings one's imagination to a whole new level. For me, whenever Im reading my books, I can feel the soul of the book and the characters springing into life. The whole idea feels like you are watching a movie, not in a theathre but in your mind. Trust me, the feeling is darn freaking cool.

But oh well, Im one of the minority of badies who read books.

A special short paragraph for my brothers, which I guess only ah wee and reeve will read. Junjie and Sianglung will be too busy to read and lianhong, I dont think he even patronise my blog.

19 years old this year and our bonds are still going strong. Many conflicts and quarrels may rise in the future, maybe in terms of relationships, money, disagreement etc, I hope these issues can be settled because I cant afford to lose a single shit of you guys in my life. Our ambitions are often far-fetched but who cares? One can steal everything from us, but not our dreams. I'm looking forward to the day whereby all of us will get married to our wives on the same day. HaHa. Our dreams maybe childish, but it is this childishness that makes us, the brothers.

yaayaa. Im a pathetic emo freak.

Tags:

Yijia: I SAW UR MSN MESSAGE! YOU!!! haha. how do u like my friendster comment then?
Jinfeng: Smooth-sail but tough. haha. pray hard for me.
Kc: You are the King. hahaha

As for now, I will be embarking on my trip to LALA land where i will meet baby there. I'm meeting her for dinner and movie later in the night. Weeeeeeeeee~

My sweet baby is a gorgeous wonderful lady. =)

i feel like blogging but i dont know what to blog about.

How Pathetic.


Alright. So right now, Im talking on the phone with my Gal..

And she's laughing and giggling and "ah na ah na"

Oh. One more thing, she's a murderer because she always has the urge of killing me alive. God knows why.

Ya. And she's giggling again.

Alright. Im Boring.

Book In Lo.

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Reply to Tags:

yijia: Surprise Surprise! haha =x

Uu: With Pride We Lead Sispec.

Kc: Stingray?

Oh. Tonight its NIGHT'S OUT!

I couldnt find any place to go and so i decided to head home for a hot bath. After which, Im gonna meet Jinfeng for a Chit-Chat Session at BukitPanjang Plaza before I booked at 10pm.
Due to the time constraint because of Army Regimental Rules, I couldnt type a full entry but no doubt, Ive time to reply Tagsssssss.

Michelle: Hi. Thanks for Reading my Blog. Nice of you to praise me and wish me Good Luck. Blessings to you too and God Bless. =)

Jerome: Rome ah Rome. Rush at MS is Opened alr lei. This Sat Im going wit Reeve, want to join us?

CherLing: Sister! Have Faith and Confidence ya. I want to see you in the Melb Uni in 2009. =)

KC: Haa. diam la. fcuking Magic School Bus.

Maur: HIHIHIHIHIHI!! meet u soon.

Chunhui: ah. see u on Sunday for Breakfast.

Hearmeroar and Celest: You guys are lucky to have a Caring Brother Like me. =p

YiJia: uh huh. I didnt Show Off K. Im just too happy to haf my Gal . haha

CIAO`BOOK IN LO.

All that i ever want to say to you now is,

Thank You.

That the existence of you in my life has changed my future tremendously. My heart is full of gratitude for everything you have gave me and done for me. =)

And I Do Love You.

For today you gave me the security of a better future and the confidence to carry on.
And For tomorrow, I will give you the best of my Everything.

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No words can explain how Im feeling right now. Emotions so strong and lasting that I couldnt breathe. Senor Afiq has just described me as "a Happy Ivan is a mad one". So much for that but its true. I couldnt contain the happiness which I havent felt since my family broke apart.

God Bless.

8-4-2007.

Joke of the Week:

Arsenal lost to WestHam.

What the ****. tell me bout` it. COCK!

For you, my Dear. =)

"Here in Your Arms" by HelloGoodbye

I like where we are,
When we drive, in your car
I like where we are.... Here

Cause our lips, can touch
And our cheeks, can brush
Our lips can touch here

Well, you are the one, the one that lies close to me
Whisper's "Hello, I miss you quite terribly"
I fell in love, in love with you suddenly
Now there's no place else I could be but here in your arms

I like where you sleep,
When you sleep, next to me.
I like where you sleep... here

Cause our lips, can touch
And our cheeks, can brush
Our lips can touch here

Well, you are the one, the one that lies close to me
Whisper's "Hello, I miss you quite terribly"
I fell in love, in love with you suddenly
Now there's no place else I could be but here in your arms

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Im supposed to go out on a date with her but the raining weather seems to be ruining all my plans. Cock. Staying at home for the whole afternoon is a misery and I hate staying at home. Its not like during my study days because weekends are the best time to do my revision. Bu oh well, i shall continue with my "Shadow of the Wind". It's a great book and i recommend you guys to read it.

Oh. Ive been Shortlisted for SMU Business Management Interview. 3 more weeks to my interview and Im totally not prepared at all. Not sure what to wear, how smartly should I dress, How should I present myself during the Interview and Stuffs. By the way, the whole session consists of a 30 mins interview, which i reckon will be held in a group, and a 45 mins essay. To make things even more shitty for me, they do not give you topics to think and plan. So its kinda like a on-the-spot thingy. Crap. I just hoped I wouldnt be in a state of shock when I get questions like "Singapore Politics and Democracy" or "Comment on any recent affairs that is going around the world", but I believe there is a high chance of such topics. On the same Issue, Im worried for the Smu's Tuition Fees. As compared to NTU and NUS, the fees are so much higher and I'm so concerned of the financial burden that is going to fall on my Dad's shoulder.

Bah. Let me strike Big Sweep.

Im so sick and tired
of all the things on my shoulders
that my heart feels like breaking
and I really feel like crying
to stop all the pains in my soul
and put an end to this whole
that im contemplating a sucide
to kill everything that hinders my sight
to bring my sister to paradise
and hope things are bette at the other side
that no one could stop me from doing this
because im insane and sane
and im saint
because Ive lost my brain

Feed me the bomb
Give me my home
build me a tomb
and goodbye im gone
Drip me some water
throw me some food
and wish me goodbye
as I set off on this road

take a rod and hit me hard. =)

REPLIES TO TAGS

Jean: thanks. you too. =)

KC: nxt week sentosa and shopping wit our wives.

Cher: uh huh.. Great. haha. see u in aussie in 2009. Im serious ya? haa

Xinyue: bah.. you were once from the west side so quit on that =p

Jinfeng: Hello~

Teach me , if possible, how to be a Better Brother?

With so many matters piling on my shoulders, the joints are giving and I could just fall apart any moment.

Im trying my very best to give my Sister a Complete Home but she doesnt seems to see my efforts.

To tell you guys the truth, Im tired. Seriously Tired. Sometime I wish I could just Give Up.

Growing up to becoming an Adult doesnt prove to be an easy feat to me at all. It so much difficult than I thought. On the brighter note, Im trying to make the best out oF everything. So Hopefully God will give Me a helping hand as I struggle through this moment.