Synopsis.

I drank but Im not drunk. The very fact that Im awake still proves that statement. I no longer have the urge to down myself with liquor, in fact, the taste of it makes me puke. what a loser. It just got more sucky when I try to get myself drunk but my body just simply keep refusing the intake of the alcoholic substances in my body. It is not doing what its primary function should be doing. I dont feel numb and there is no adrenaline rush or sort in my blood. damn it.

I hate this. I want to get myself numb and forget bout` everything that is happening around me. I am just getting sick of it.

I hate being alone all by myself. The emotions just keep bottling up and sometime this makes me become a lil` psychotic. Sucidal thoughts do enter once in a while and it gets painful to even stay alive, breathing the toxicated air around me.

A break. That is what I need.

I dont want to be alone. I hate it when that feeling set in. I need love. I miss my girl.

I want to try writing stories. Stories that make people feel and cry. Damn. Im an emo kid.

Goodnight. =)


Yvonne is my sweet lover. =)

Bad Day

I had a bad day, fucked up day. Damn.

Bitch it.

Im forced to watch the god damn Man U match with Siang lung. Damn it, my heart aches when I saw them so happy and we( Arsenal) was so close to getting it. Shit. And with players like Flamini and Hleb going to other clubs during the transfer window, I cant forsee what will be the level of playing field when Arsenal pit against the other strong teams.

Damn it.

"Put your hands on me and let our bodies caress. we dont speak, we just let it go on and on."

I dont want to start any quarrels with you, I just want to love you. Im sorry. I was bad at words and I phrase my intentions wrongly. I love you.

My dad is in a debt and I dont know how to help him.

Fuck it.

You know what, I feel like just burying myself in storybooks and let my mind remains in their fantasies. I want to meet Clare in Time Traveller's Wife.

Wake up.

cool

Wow. Im in love with this phone but its 1k plus. damn

Embrace.

Talking about embracing globalisation, we should welcome it with our hands and let the economy BOOM. And with that Booming, let me cite an example of the consequence that is happening in our community. I went to the People's Park centre with my girlfriend. I was actually searching for nice and cheap berms in Chinatown. True enough, People's Park wowed you the crowds and the many different dishes. But what really disgusted me is the number of cheenas bitches over there. If they are there and just doing shopping, I wouldnt care less but those bitches are hooking themselves to the aged men. Yucks. I bet those toothless old faggots have reached andropause but they are still flirting their scaly skins on the china bitches, splashing their CPF retirement money into the fire. Damn those bitches too. Yuck yuck yuckss.

I went to IMH today and they diagnosed me with xenophobia. Damn. Im getting freaked out when i see these bitches. Im not a Pro-Tibet but certainly an Anti-Chinese. Yea. Im not a participant of any demonstrations just in case the damn chinese govt come questioning bout` things. Im a Singaporean Chinese, not a Chinese Chinese. Shit them.

book in le. ciao`

Hi

saucony passion run is coming up in 2 months time. Hopefully i will be able to trained up to that level of fitness and complete the 15km run! I can do it!! haha. but it seems like no matter how i hard i try to exercise, which i run like almost everyotherday, the lumps of dangling fats are still there. damn it! when will those abs be born and for me to boast around. =x

my girlfriend will be complaining how much i tend to emphasize on getting those abs. =x

but oh well.

Anyway, Im officially broke after purchasing the new specs ive bought. Its black and it's for army. damn it. 6 MORE MONTHS TO ORD and im buying lots of stuffs to meet the BN SOP standard. Althought it is 6 more months but Im having a lil of that ord mood when i saw the older scouts specs that are going to ord nxt month.

Nvm. Serve my time and off I go.

Ive so many photos in this desktop that I havent cleaned up to be edit. I just dont seem to have the time over the weekend to do things. Guess I wont be going anyway this weekend so I can stay home to settle some stuffs. Uncle said that my dad is changing for the better but im doubting it. This aint the first time he said he will change and i prefered to believe that it wont be the last time too.

I want to pick up guitar and strummed it like rockstar. haha.

Me and stefanie are still not talking yet.

And I haven met up with BFF yet.

Busy weeks ahead.

DarDar sticky to Dada. =)