# Jacob's Creek

Someone once told me that, being in a relationship, it is about loving over and over again. And you know what, i think this statement that's said is so darn true.

I'm drinking a glass of Jacob's Greek before I get to sleep. And guys, I've got a job at Cadbury Singapore. I'll be gaining 10kg because of the chocolates I see every morning at the reception counter. Like what they say, seeing is not believing, it is eating. okay. Random.

Anyway, I just realized something about me that people may find it annoying, that is I always find myself thrown into the world of fairytales. I like to bullshit about unrealistic stuffs and believe that Santa Claus and his friends do exist. AHAHA. not to the extent. But, I like to dream about stupid things and get myself thinking about ridiculous stuffs. Tell me about it. Since young, I like to draw images from the cotton clouds and engulfed in the fires of the Endi Blyton's storybooks.

Ha. That's about it. Im going to sleep soon although it's only freaking 10pm. But who cares. Im ging to a place i call home, where i believe everything is going to be just fine. Because in reality, things don't always turn out the way you want it to be.

Fcuk it. Just a thing to note, I'm buying a butcher knife to kill my Dad's girlfriend. China slut. Yucks.

Another thing to note, I'm writing a novel. DONT LAUGH. because Im so certain it is going to be a BIG HIT in stores. =) and ive got someone i want to thank alr. haha. you know who you are.

# break

Im on the verge of breaking down. Seriously.

"where is; it's here"

I never thought I had a teacher whom i can like forged a friendship with. My Gp teacher is one where we can meet and chat like friends. How lucky for her that she can goes to switzerland for one darn year on holiday. haha. to acc. her husband actually.

Xmas is here anyway. I just want to wish everyone who reads my blog , A happy and merry chirstmas and a Wonderful new year. Although with the recession that may seems to set in next year, let's brave the storm ahead of us and emerge a survivor.

Christmas is a festive season to love and forgive. So come what may and go whatever that should leave. Love those who needs love and forgive those who let you down. ( although there are those that I still hate. Who gives a damn anyway). We dont have much to live, but when you give what you have to those who are less fortunate, it is the smile they show that makes you know you are living right. Do a part. Love and belove.

Cheers my friends. =)

# Anna

The thing is, I am always learning and trying to give the best of my everything. But I never know whether did I make it right. Sometimes, there is always this conflicting interest in me that keeps me from making the right decision. Everytime when i take 2 steps ahead, i wil take one step back, thinking and being indecisive whether am I going the right way. Whatever the track is, I still do hope and pray that it leads to where I am heading all along.

" Daddy, can I ask you a question?"

"Yes, my sweet little princess."

"Why did you and mom gave me this name Dianna? "

Ken struggles for a while, trying hard to hide his emotions from his daughter.

"Because your mom wants you to grow up to be a strong and confident lady like her. And before she leave this world, she wants a part of her to always be with us. It was like, she did know that she was not going to survive that operation. So before the anesthesia took effect and put her into unconscious state, she told me that her name will be Dianna. Dear, pay attention to your name. Your mom's name is Anna and with your name Dianna, she is always living and by your side my princess. She never left us and never will I leave you. "

# Tumor

Find the place where we escape
Take you with me for a space
The city buzz, sounds just like a fridge
I walk the streets through seven bars
I had to find just where you are
The faces seems to blur, they're all the same

I haven been blogging for quite some time alr. It is not that I dont have any stuffs to blog but it is just funny how my mind goes blank when I plan to begin an entry. The train of thoughts that came minutes earlier just vanish in that split second, which is the reason why i carry a blackbook around with me so i can jotted down any thoughts i had as it comes to me. I dont want to let it slipped away before I can think of it again.

The truth is, many of us are always living in the past. Dont we? Everytime when I met up with my brothers for our usual kopi-ing, we will start to talk about the past. I always have a better memory of the past as compared to the present one. I dont know. Maybe because of all the many things are happening, my brain seems to be rejecting and selecting pieces of the memories to remember. Which is why my girlfriend always complains that Ive got Short Term Memory. I cant deny that because I really think im suffering from that problem.

It's been one week since I have a headache and it is still aching me. Really considering whether to see a doctor on monday. I'm always having this idea that maybe there is a worm or tumor or something in my head. Maybe an alien? darn

I'm going to sleep alr. And i need a job.

Pissed(Peace) out.