if i aint got you

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yeah, this aint bout my life
its bout my friend
a friend whom i hardly know
but i could sense the pain he is goin through
i just want to let others know how he feels

he lives in big room flat
a 5-room apartment with walls thats cold
he could not feel any love from his olds
somehow he just feel outkast in this home
mommy and daddy aint not loving him no more
they're busy with their work till they left him on his own
he thought life would be simple as he wish
naive and credulous thoughts
all these left him to these spot
as he watched people around him quarrelling over one parking lot
without guidance he changed alot
countrified and crude
his parents though it was just part of the growing route
they were wrong from the start
loving a child with no heart
like a puppet with no feelings
hes a child with pampered with conditional love

mummy, i love you and why wasnt u there
daddy, i miss you and all i wanted is your care
if i ever leave this world and never come back
please hang on for i am always there

he cried each night and no one was there
all he ever wanted was that special care
no one turned around and took a look at him
hes cutting his wrist and hes bleeding hard
the pain of adrenaline is rushing
and its causing pressure on his heart
he look at the family photo
"mommy aint gonna care for what i've done,
daddy wont bother even if i die"
the family portrait dropped and smashed to pieces
like a jijsaw puzzles which falls from its places
he stomped his foot on the floor trying to hit their faces
the blood is still dripping like races
his heartbeat paces
he faces
the death that he see-es

mummy, i love you and why wasnt u there
daddy, i miss you and all i wanted is your care
if i ever leave this world and never come back
please hang on for i am always there

he open his eyes and saw the white background
"im dead. god, take me to your land"
"son, misery is gone and so do the rant"
"hows mommy and daddy, Father"
"i punished them with my power"
"but why Father, tell me why,
i love them more than you love me.
though i hated them when they ignored me,
but Father, they were the one that gave birth to me."
He shouted with anger
frustration dispersed to all different angle
"they treated you like rubbish and u still love them,
son, you are hopeless, i cant that this tempt"
"send me back to where i am from cause this isnt where i belong,
thank you father, i love you and hope u love me so"
"you are enlightened,my son.
go back and things will change when tomorrow began"

mummy, i love you and why wasnt u there
daddy, i miss you and all i wanted is your care
if i ever leave this world and never come back
please hang on strong for i am always there

he woke up and saw daddy lying on his lap
he turned around and saw mummy crying on her lap
"mommy and daddy, im alright.
heres a message from God, he told me to love you right."